(Debra's own description of Asperger's syndrome {in part})

Me (Debra) on my 39th birthday. Oh, and Bearsac of course!

Five months after diagnosing myself as an Aspergian at 38 years old, I was officially diagnosed. An Aspergian (or Aspie for short) is someone labeled as having Asperger's syndrome and is proud of it. Asperger's syndrome is on the high functioning end of the autistic spectrum.

This means that my brain is wired differently to a NeuroTypical (NT) person. (A person whose brain is wired in a way that the medical world considers to be 'normal' or typical [the majority of people]).

Aspergians brains tend to function better with logic, ability to acquire and store a large knowledge on things that interest them, observing things in finer detail, make decisions without emotional clouding or peer/social pressure, and be comfortable alone for long periods of time. Aspergians are often (not all) intellectually gifted but are generally considered to have a higher intellectual capacity that the NT, but often face barriers in the education system as it does not cater for the way we need to learn.

I highlight these strengths first as Asperger's is portrayed mostly as something wrong with people; it's not, it is just a different way of understanding and perceiving things physically and emotionally because the brain wiring is different to the typical and the world caters for the typical brained person. However, there are areas we can find difficult or challenging.

The parts of the brain that control social interactions tend to be less developed and this means Aspergians often have difficulties with social interaction in the typical way. This can be learnt manually, as it has with me. I am a reasonably social person and as an intelligent adult have taught myself manually lots of the social rules and cues. I store the manually learnt information like a computer. This sometimes deliberate attempt to learn social rules and behavior, matched with my logic and ability not to cloud my judgment with emotion, has meant I can often work things out even better than neurotypicals and deal with the trials of life better than most or at least not get so emotional about them.

People with Asperger's syndrome are 'neurodifferent' rather than 'neurotypical'. Also neurodifferent are people that are said to have dyslexia, dyspraxia, ADD, ADHD, ODD, Tourette's syndrome, autism.

I have sensory overload issues and am oversensitive to some sounds, smells, tactile and some visual stimuli. I find multitasking challenging if using more than one sense when concentrating or stressed. This can be typical for lots of Aspies.

I do consider my sensory overloads to be impairments but not all my AS traits I have, some traits I see as strengths or purely differences.

Like lots of Aspies I have difficulty recognising faces (more than the average difficulty NT people say they have). I often don't realise I have met the person several times before and it often occurs to me who people are only after they say something, make a gesture or a facial expression I associate with the person before I recognise them, even if I don't know the meaning of the expression. I have asked people how so-and-so is as I know they are connected to that person only to find out they are the person I'm asking about! I learnt to fake recognition some years ago, but sometimes now, if time permits and I get the feeling they won't be insulted will come out and say to a person, sorry but I just don't recognise you or remember your name.

I tend to have to say hello to everyone I pass in the street in my area as I am not sure if I am supposed to know them and don't want to seem as though I am ignoring them.

Please do not take offense if I appear not to recognise you or have muddled you up with someone else.

'Having' Asperger's mildly or being high functioning can create challenges itself as people do not realise why you appear as weird, naive, self-absorbed, rude, indifferent, unfriendly, overfriendly to them as you seem, as they miss out on the signs that you might have Asperger's as you appear intelligent or very intelligent and the bit they find weird does not match up to that in their minds.

If Asperger's is more obvious then people can understand and maybe make allowances for your seemly odd ways and maybe do not take offense so easily.

Aspergians often have repetitive behavior or an unusual hobby or interest, to which they devote a lot of time. (The medical world and some of society sometimes call these interests 'obsessions') Bearsac is one such hobby and is one I made up and have never tired of.

People may say the whole Bearsac thing is part of my Asperger's condition and that I would not do it if I didn't have AS. I feel I still would do it whatever, as I am free willed as part of my character. Some of the the repetitive behavior with him may well be a small part but what is more a part of Asperger's is the fact that I do not worry or care what people think about me and the way I come across with Bearsac. I can do what I enjoy because I enjoy it and don't care that some people think it odd. The part of the brain that worries about what other people think does not always work in the same way with people with AS as it does with NTs, who seem to be concerned more about what other people think about them than they care for their need for self expression and to do what they want or not what they don't.

Another thing with what is called Asperger's syndrome is that Aspies tend not to see hierarchy (or assumed hierarchy). So sometimes people take offense that I do the Bearsac thing with them as they see it as though I don't hold them high in enough regard to worry about looking foolish to them. They would be partly right in thinking that, I don't care what they think enough to worry if I look foolish to them, and I don't care what they think about me, but that doesn't mean that I have no regard for them at all, I have regard for all humans, it's just that I have confidence in myself as I am to be myself and not change because of what people think, unless I deem it necessary.
Not worrying what people think about me does not mean I have no regard for them or do not see them as equal, I see everyone as equal and don't look up to, nor down on, anyone. But what happens is some people expect other people to look up to them and then feel offended if they do not. I suppose they see lack of concern about how one looks to them as not looking up to them and they stupidly take offense. So when these type of people see this woman with a teddy bear they assume hierarchy over me and take offense that I don't look up to them because I'm doing the Bearsac thing and am not worried about looking foolish to them. Well, those of guilty party, GET A LIFE! Isn't it so sad when people overconcern themselves with what people think about them; but isn't that what so many NTs go through life doing.

I often think without words or pictures, (it's more like simply perceiving somehow). Forming words in my head just slows down my very fast and often, unsequenced thought process. I don't think mostly in pictures in the wide way a lot of people on the austic spectrum do, but I do sometimes think in flashes of pictures, just maybe only a little more than NTs might sometimes do; it's hard to know. I used to think other people don't think, I know now, they do. However, I still feel people don't think as much as I do, well, at least I think NTs don't think as much as I do. For me to translate my unworded thoughts into words, in order to communicate them, can be sometimes be hard for me, and I often get misunderstood as I have not translated my thoughts to speech successfully. The processing between my fast mind and spoken communication gets muddled up or is too slow a process to translate effectively, partly, I feel, because I have bad immediate and short-term memory.

Being perceived as 'different' in a way NTs cannot accept, Aspies tend to get bullied or left out more than NTs at school, work and in society in general. This continues into adulthood, often even with adults being bullied by children.

A lot of people tell me I must be mentally ill. Asperger's is not a mental Illness. When I was diagnosed with Asperger's the diagnostic team agreed that I had no mental health or psychological issues after asking questions aimed at assessing if someone has mental health issues as a matter of routine. Yes, Bearsac did speak to them.
To the people that attempt to dis me in this way (rather feebly I might add) I like to say I have been certified sane, how about you?!

Being less naturally socially adept in a way that typical society considers "normal" has been a barrier in my past and can still give me some difficulties now. However, I feel society still needs to evolve its view of diversity to a more positive general consensus, to push back the barriers it erects for people that have neologically different brains. These barriers are perpetuated by the medical world by their view of Asperger's as being a 'disorder' and something a person needs to be mended of or cured of. Also barriers are those created by the negatively informing media to a majority society of NTs that have difficulty thinking for themselves outside the social constraints of our society at its current level of evolution.

I feel now that my realisation that I'm an Aspie has given me a skeleton key to many doors of opportunity; I just have to find time to open them all and release the potential I was unaware I possessed.

If you are interested in your company, organisation or service receiving Asperger's syndrome Awareness Training or Disabilty Awareness training then please email me for details. I work within the disability movement.

Debra

bearsac@bearsac.com

To whom it is relevant

You laugh at me because I'm different. I laugh at you because
you're all the same

(a more genralised description adapted from internet sources)

Asperger's syndrome (AS), is classed by the medical world as a pervasive developmental "disorder"* commonly referred to as a form of "high-functioning" autism.
It is not a mental condition... it is a neurological difference.
Individuals with Asperger's are often intellectually gifted but are generally considered to have a higher intellectual capacity while having a lower social capacity than Neuro-typicals.* Aspies tend to have powerful minds, unique personalities with strong individuality.

The term "Asperger's syndrome" was coined by Lorna Wing in a 1981 medical paper; she named it after Hans Asperger, an Austrian psychiatrist and pediatrician whose work was not internationally recognised until the 1990s.

In the 1940s, Hans Asperger studied a group of young boys who seemed different from most children. These boys had social and communication difficulties similar to those of children with autism. However, they had average or above average intelligence and possessed good language skills. Dr. Asperger called this condition "autistic psychopathy." This condition was widely ignored until Dr. Asperger's writings were translated and published in English during the 1980s or 90s.
Today, autistic psychopathy is called "Asperger's syndrome." A lot of people proud of having Aspergers refer to themselves as Aspies or Aspergians.

*"disorder"
Aspies tend not to like terms like "disorder" This is a term used by the medical world. Aspies see their brains as different and not disordered.

* A neuro-typical (or NT) person is one whose neurological (brain) development and state are typical, conforming to what most people would perceive as "normal".
"normal" is a term disliked by Aspies and replaced by neuro-typical

The major characteristics of Asperger's syndrome are:

impairment in social interaction and communication

repetitive or obsessive behaviors

preoccupation with particular subjects or interests

unusual uneven skills ability

good (sometimes superior) grammar and vocabulary compared to 'classic' autistics

normal cognitive development compared to 'classic' autistics

average, or more usually, above average intelligence or very high intelligence

The DSM1V (1994) diagnose Asperger's syndrome when all the typical signs of Autism are present, but the person is thought to have normal language development and average or above average IQ*

* Doctors tend to diagnose autism if IQ is below average and/or there was a speech delay, and diagnose Asperger's if average or above IQ and high functioning.
However, some autistics have above average IQ even if it appears that they have low intelligence and do not communicate verbally or are not high functioning. Also some Aspies learn to speak earlier and more pedantically than average but tend to maybe speak less by choice.

Famous people considered to be Aspies:

History:
Mozart
Beethoven
Einstein
Newton
Alexander Graham Bell
Thomas Edison
Jane Austen
Vincent van Gogh
......many more

Current times:
Bill Gates
Woody Allen
Gary Numan
Tony Benn
Bob Dylan
Steven Spielberg
Keanu Reeves

The preceding informations have been shortened or adapted from sources on the internet
To find out more about Aspergers see these sites

http://www.key4learning.com/aspergerssyndrome.htm

http://www.nerdshit.com/archive/2005/01/04/some_autistics_/

http://home.att.net/~ascaris1/Advocacy.html

http://home.att.net/%7Eascaris1/index.html

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/magazine/3766697.stm

http://www.aspergia.com/passport/

http://money.guardian.co.uk/workweekly/story/0,,1950703,00.html

or search on Asperer's syndrome on a search engine

for an Aspie view on Neuro-typicals (NTs) see this link but don't take offence!

http://home.att.net/%7Eascaris1/neurotypicality.html